My choice was to sit back and just wait for whenever my body chooses to birth my baby. My question was, what if I do nothing? Does a flower need to do eat more spice and walk more so it can bloom? Do you mean to tell me that that same energy that opens the flower, beats my heart, and grows my baby, now needs me to help ‘it’ birth my baby? Call it stubbornness but I was sitting tight on this one. I was going to wait and see.
Now don't get me wrong, this does not mean that the excitement died down just because I made my mind up.....oooooh no! It was all over me and the hardest thing was to stay put, stand firm, be excited but not let the excitement eat me up.
I know for sure that what sabotaged the birth of my first born was this energy of excitement. I remember when I was in latent phase of labour, I quickly got excited, started making a fuss that I was in labour, and even though I stayed home for a few days before I went to the birth centre...all the time at home was spent flapping about. Which I have no doubt made the pain even more intense than it should be. Yes! You can literally make yourself feel more pain than necessary just to prove you are in labour. We have this power! Ain’t it awesome?! And on the flip side of this...if you relax when labour starts and just reduce the flapping...you can equally reduce the intense feelings of labour which will in turn means you ‘last’ longer because you've told your mind to chill out....nothing to ‘see’ here.
I remember because of my excitement asking for people to shove their hands into my vagina and tell me how dilated I was because I wanted to see how ‘well’ my body was doing. And when it wasn't complying (obviously! because when you watch someone on the loo...the poo ain't gonna come!) I was disappointed. And feeling disappointment? Equaled saying bye bye to my oxytocin production.